Try to make sure you get some quality time to yourself today, Scorpio. Your nature is one that thrives on intense thought, creativity, sexuality, and emotion. Without adequate time alone in a space that’s comfortable for you, you may begin to feel worn out. Such things as irritability or withdrawal can be strong indicators that it's high time you were alone with yourself. Make some plans for this today.
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I learned this about myself a few years ago. Now I take time for myself when I need it... generally anything that goes with singing fits the bill: driving, Sudoku puzzles, staring at the wall.
Showing posts with label Horoscope. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Horoscope. Show all posts
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Friday, January 22, 2010
Horoscope, Interpreted
October 23 - November 21
Your mind is in a period of great activity, and your curiosity about the world around you is practically insatiable. You're interested in anything and everything. You want to be able to understand everything from the simplest to the most complicated. Nothing could get in the way of your thirst for knowledge. So get a good supply of books about the things you would like to learn about and try and meet some new people.
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Does that mean I can't read Twilight again?
Just once more? Once more after this time, right?
Nope, changed my mind... I was born in March.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Horoscope, Interpreted
Scorpio
October 23 - November 21
It seems your ship is about to come in, Scorpio. At least, the planets seem to think so. Your years of cultivating business relationships will pay off in the form of increased sales or new business opportunities. It seems this success spills over into your personal life as well. Life on the home front has never been more serene. You are the conductor of this melodious symphony that is your life. Congratulations!
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OKAY!!!!!
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Horoscope, Interpreted
Wednesday, Dec 23rd, 2009 -- Your creative process is anything but normal now. Your usual ways of expressing yourself don't bring the desired results. A lack of productivity might trigger feelings of frustration or angst, which just adds to your malaise. Instead of doing things the same way as before, try a radical new approach. Keep in mind that it's not business-as-usual any longer, so thinking outside of the box is essential today.
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And here I am, on Blogger. Drunk. On Blogger. Lacking productivity. Feeling angst and frustration. Is this out of the box? Oh, fella... there is no box...Monday, December 21, 2009
Horoscope, Interpreted
Sunday, Dec 20th, 2009 -- Your traditional planetary ruler Mars turns retrograde in your 10th House of Career today, indicating that you might face delays as you try to reach the ambitious goals you've set for yourself. You might feel as if you are not making much progress with respect to your professional aspirations. Nevertheless, your imagination is wide open but the ideas and images that bubble into consciousness now may take a while to manifest.
Monday, Dec 21st, 2009 -- You may not be overly thrilled about your plans for the immediate future, yet you are able to balance your hopes and dreams with the reality of your current situation. Even if you are tempted to escalate the fantasy feeding frenzy, don't lose track of where you are now standing and where you want to go. Being connected with the larger picture should make navigation easier in the present moment.
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So, there's a full time job posting in Kanata. As a receptionist.
A receptionist? Dude, I wanna rule the world! But you gotta start somewhere, right? It's full time to maybe I can get my own place (yes, I do already have the job in my mind... cuz that's how I cont-rol). And it's a foot in the door. And I do have a lot to learn in the industry. They are very pro-medical background out here, much more so than in BC, so it's experience or bust.
I will drive out there and hand in my resume tomorrow - hopefully the job isn't already gone!
Monday, Dec 21st, 2009 -- You may not be overly thrilled about your plans for the immediate future, yet you are able to balance your hopes and dreams with the reality of your current situation. Even if you are tempted to escalate the fantasy feeding frenzy, don't lose track of where you are now standing and where you want to go. Being connected with the larger picture should make navigation easier in the present moment.
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So, there's a full time job posting in Kanata. As a receptionist.
A receptionist? Dude, I wanna rule the world! But you gotta start somewhere, right? It's full time to maybe I can get my own place (yes, I do already have the job in my mind... cuz that's how I cont-rol). And it's a foot in the door. And I do have a lot to learn in the industry. They are very pro-medical background out here, much more so than in BC, so it's experience or bust.
I will drive out there and hand in my resume tomorrow - hopefully the job isn't already gone!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Horoscope, Interpreted
Tuesday, Dec 15th, 2009 -- Your belief in yourself can make all the difference in the world today, for your mind is the architect of your future. Your ruling planet Mars, powerfully placed in your 10th House of Career, is engaged in an aspect of manifestation with logical Mercury. The power of positive thinking is greatly magnified now; if you can express your goals in words, you will increase your chances for success.
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I'm, like, really drunk and tired right now so I can't interpret much other than my belief in myself is at an alltime high and my mind is the architect of a snowman. Er. The power of positive thinking has been greatly magnified by the wine and beer. Can't express. Any. Thin. G. Expeshly not goals. I don't even play hockey. xxx
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I'm, like, really drunk and tired right now so I can't interpret much other than my belief in myself is at an alltime high and my mind is the architect of a snowman. Er. The power of positive thinking has been greatly magnified by the wine and beer. Can't express. Any. Thin. G. Expeshly not goals. I don't even play hockey. xxx
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Horoscope, Interpreted
Wednesday, Dec 9th, 2009 -- You may act as if you are okay with whatever happens now, but the truth is that your ambivalence is pulling you strongly in two different directions and you don't want to let go of either choice. Unfortunately, you won't be able to continue living under the illusion that you can follow divergent paths because you are at a fork in the road and you must make a final decision before moving on. Trust that you will get it right.
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So, what's the priority?
Continue working toward a career that I love and move at least an hour away from my sister? *or* just get a job close by and rent an apartment here?
What I want most in the world right now - as astounding as it might be to the old me - is a sense of community. I realized that when I was working with the seniors because I really felt like I was a part of something bigger than myself for the first time in a long time. That's what drove me to come here, I'm pretty sure.
I am so torn between here and there.
There because of the things I can do such as better shopping, better movie theatres, better chance of finding a fella, better resources. I have the potential to make more money there and I have a shit load of debt on my plate right now.
But sister is here and how cool would it be to live that close and be able to go to a movie sometimes or go for a walk or just see each other without having plan it out. Here I might have a better chance of being part of the community. I'm already wondering if there is a community theatre I could join or some other group to get involved in.
You know what? Work there and live in between somewhere. It's not like I'll see her daily and there is close enough to get together often. She will be with the BIL most of the time, anyway, but when one of us needs the other we will be there.
Yeah, I think that's right. Okay. Thanks, me. ;-)
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So, what's the priority?
Continue working toward a career that I love and move at least an hour away from my sister? *or* just get a job close by and rent an apartment here?
What I want most in the world right now - as astounding as it might be to the old me - is a sense of community. I realized that when I was working with the seniors because I really felt like I was a part of something bigger than myself for the first time in a long time. That's what drove me to come here, I'm pretty sure.
I am so torn between here and there.
There because of the things I can do such as better shopping, better movie theatres, better chance of finding a fella, better resources. I have the potential to make more money there and I have a shit load of debt on my plate right now.
But sister is here and how cool would it be to live that close and be able to go to a movie sometimes or go for a walk or just see each other without having plan it out. Here I might have a better chance of being part of the community. I'm already wondering if there is a community theatre I could join or some other group to get involved in.
You know what? Work there and live in between somewhere. It's not like I'll see her daily and there is close enough to get together often. She will be with the BIL most of the time, anyway, but when one of us needs the other we will be there.
Yeah, I think that's right. Okay. Thanks, me. ;-)
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Horoscope, Interpreted!
"Tuesday, Nov 17th, 2009 -- You are standing at a fork in the road and you must choose whether to take the difficult route or the easy one. On the surface, it seems like a straightforward decision, but the path before you is a winding one, obscuring your vision. No matter where you want to go now, you'll have a better chance of reaching your destination if you stick to the map. Ultimately, it's not about picking your level of difficulty; it's about simplifying your life."
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It was a bad day. Such is the journey. I was so ready to move out of Debra & Andrew's place. After one week... Well, closer to two. I read this horoscope and when it said to choose to take the difficult route or the easy one, I thought the difficult route would be to find a place of my own. I think I was wrong. I think the difficult route for me right now is to stay. To stick to the map.
I'm not good at living with people but it's not because they get in my way and crowd me. It's because I feel like I am in their way. I know I've still got a lot of growing to do, I know that there are still ghosts in there waiting for their turn to haunt me. But the difference is: the voice inside my head is now my best friend. That crazy bitch whore that made my life a living hell is now the most supportive person I know. It makes sense, though. We have to adapt to our circumstances - no one has ever "got" me, so I had to find a way to take care of it myself. It certainly takes a lot of pressure off my friend's backs.
This is how my head works:
A conversation with myself
- you have to stop making life decisions when you are having a bad day
- yeah but nobody loves me and I'm garbage. Look at me, sitting in the spare bedroom at my little sisters house, crying my eyes out because she didn't come up to talk to me when she came home. Visions of mom, much?
- you make it sound so simple but it's not. Yes, it's a bad day. You're tired and feeling under the weather and your emotions are...
- I'm pretty sure I'm faking the illness, like always
- you sat at home all day long and faked having a headache? So that pain around your eyes and forehead, that has your head in a vice is a figment of your imagination?
- no but I am exaggerating it
- for sympathy?
- more to set up my "not feeling well" story to get out of going to Andrea's party this weekend
- why?
- because I want to be alone
- you aren't alone enough???
- it's very difficult for me to live in someone else's home. I feel out of place and unwanted and in the way and a burden
- do they feel that way?
- probably. They would if they saw me right now
- do you not think that they love you and want to help you?
- I think that they love and want to help me in theory but the practise has become another story
- are those feelings coming from them? Or are they coming from you?
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- do you hear them downstairs, laughing and joking around? Do you feel that you
would not be welcome
- yeah, sort of. I would be welcome if I was visiting but not so much if I was staying
- let's get back to that party... you are exaggerating feeling ill to get out of going to a party, correct? Why? Not why don't you want to go but why do you feel you have to fake sick?
- because I don't want to tell them why. Because I don't want to hurt their feelings by telling them how I feel
- how do you feel?
- I think we just did this part. Out of place, a burden.
- but why? how?
- there are so many rules. I don't like rules. I don't like constantly having to worry about stepping on someone's toes, doing something wrong. I always feel like I'm doing something wrong anyway so when there are so many restrictions it just stresses me out. If they go for the weekend and I stay, I will have a couple of days to just be without worrying what is expected of me
- what rules?
- about the laundry. About where to put my furniture. About eating too much. About doing something wrong. About using the internet too much. About saying something inappropriate. And I don't want to talk to her about it because then I will only be passing the burden onto her.
- this might be the problem.
- Cathy hated me when I lived with her. Tom hated me when I tried to be his friend. I drive my parents up the wall when I stay with them. What's going to make it different with her? I don't want to cause strife with her and Andrew. I know how it is for her because it was the same for me when I lived with Karl.
- that's your experience, not hers. That's enough for right now. Just you chill. Sit back, read your book and chill. Stop worrying that everyone isn't going to like you enough, stop worrying that you are doing it wrong. Yes, children learn what they live but adults get to choose what they will live. What will you live, Beverly? This is a choice.
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It was a bad day. Such is the journey. I was so ready to move out of Debra & Andrew's place. After one week... Well, closer to two. I read this horoscope and when it said to choose to take the difficult route or the easy one, I thought the difficult route would be to find a place of my own. I think I was wrong. I think the difficult route for me right now is to stay. To stick to the map.
I'm not good at living with people but it's not because they get in my way and crowd me. It's because I feel like I am in their way. I know I've still got a lot of growing to do, I know that there are still ghosts in there waiting for their turn to haunt me. But the difference is: the voice inside my head is now my best friend. That crazy bitch whore that made my life a living hell is now the most supportive person I know. It makes sense, though. We have to adapt to our circumstances - no one has ever "got" me, so I had to find a way to take care of it myself. It certainly takes a lot of pressure off my friend's backs.
This is how my head works:
A conversation with myself
- you have to stop making life decisions when you are having a bad day
- yeah but nobody loves me and I'm garbage. Look at me, sitting in the spare bedroom at my little sisters house, crying my eyes out because she didn't come up to talk to me when she came home. Visions of mom, much?
- you make it sound so simple but it's not. Yes, it's a bad day. You're tired and feeling under the weather and your emotions are...
- I'm pretty sure I'm faking the illness, like always
- you sat at home all day long and faked having a headache? So that pain around your eyes and forehead, that has your head in a vice is a figment of your imagination?
- no but I am exaggerating it
- for sympathy?
- more to set up my "not feeling well" story to get out of going to Andrea's party this weekend
- why?
- because I want to be alone
- you aren't alone enough???
- it's very difficult for me to live in someone else's home. I feel out of place and unwanted and in the way and a burden
- do they feel that way?
- probably. They would if they saw me right now
- do you not think that they love you and want to help you?
- I think that they love and want to help me in theory but the practise has become another story
- are those feelings coming from them? Or are they coming from you?
-
- do you hear them downstairs, laughing and joking around? Do you feel that you
would not be welcome
- yeah, sort of. I would be welcome if I was visiting but not so much if I was staying
- let's get back to that party... you are exaggerating feeling ill to get out of going to a party, correct? Why? Not why don't you want to go but why do you feel you have to fake sick?
- because I don't want to tell them why. Because I don't want to hurt their feelings by telling them how I feel
- how do you feel?
- I think we just did this part. Out of place, a burden.
- but why? how?
- there are so many rules. I don't like rules. I don't like constantly having to worry about stepping on someone's toes, doing something wrong. I always feel like I'm doing something wrong anyway so when there are so many restrictions it just stresses me out. If they go for the weekend and I stay, I will have a couple of days to just be without worrying what is expected of me
- what rules?
- about the laundry. About where to put my furniture. About eating too much. About doing something wrong. About using the internet too much. About saying something inappropriate. And I don't want to talk to her about it because then I will only be passing the burden onto her.
- this might be the problem.
- Cathy hated me when I lived with her. Tom hated me when I tried to be his friend. I drive my parents up the wall when I stay with them. What's going to make it different with her? I don't want to cause strife with her and Andrew. I know how it is for her because it was the same for me when I lived with Karl.
- that's your experience, not hers. That's enough for right now. Just you chill. Sit back, read your book and chill. Stop worrying that everyone isn't going to like you enough, stop worrying that you are doing it wrong. Yes, children learn what they live but adults get to choose what they will live. What will you live, Beverly? This is a choice.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Horoscope
Saturday, Nov 14th, 2009 -- You may feel as if circumstances are pushing you into a corner and just when it appears hopeless, the lightning of awareness strikes and changes the parameters of the game. No longer are you restrained by an old pattern, for you suddenly see yourself in a different light. Paradoxically, the situation may remain the same, but now at least you have new options to explore before you decide what to do next.
Friday, November 13, 2009
Horoscope
Friday, Nov 13th, 2009 -- Although you may be dealing with ghosts from your past, they are not likely scary enough today to prevent you from banishing them back to the netherworlds from which they came. Actually, your dreams lure you to the edge of excitement, even if you still have a few details to work through now before you can make them real. Don't let fear get in the way of the exciting possibilities that are right around the next corner.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Horoscope
Scorpio
(Oct 23 - Nov 21) You seem to be able to walk a fine line today as you gracefully stand between the old regular routine and the as-of-yet unknown future. Somehow, you can fill in the details in your dreams without anxiously wondering how you can possibly make your ideal fantasies come true. Don't worry about manifesting anything now; just experience your life as it is. You'll be able to enjoy your current freedom more if you aren't responsible for making anything happen right away.
(Oct 23 - Nov 21) You seem to be able to walk a fine line today as you gracefully stand between the old regular routine and the as-of-yet unknown future. Somehow, you can fill in the details in your dreams without anxiously wondering how you can possibly make your ideal fantasies come true. Don't worry about manifesting anything now; just experience your life as it is. You'll be able to enjoy your current freedom more if you aren't responsible for making anything happen right away.
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